T, minus 10 days, and counting

There is something that is in severe conflict in my life. I don't know exactly what the nature is, where it comes from or how best to resolve it. I do know, however, that I have many, many distractions in my day to day life that help deaden the pain and give me a false sense of calm and contentment.

For what I am about to attempt, I have received many varied reviews. Captain Happy says I'm weird. Co-workers offer support and, in one instance, admiration.

May 1 is the date.

More later.